I’m pretty weird about things. No matter what happens between me and a girl, I always find a reason to blame myself. I feel like I’m a piece of shit, and I’m just a loser. You know what? That’s all bullshit. I may not be the most attractive, but I’m still a fucking awesome guy. I got a lot of things going for me, and if someone can’t notice that, then fuck em’. I treat everyone with the utmost respect and kindness, and I would never go out of my way to hurt my friends. You ladies got things all fucked up. You go after the “hot” guys who will treat you like shit, and then act surprised when it happens. You need to realize that guys like me will work our ass off just to get your attention. We’re going to go out of our way to show you how special we think you are. You know why? Because we actually have to work for you, so we value it even more. Oh, and for you guys out there, don’t be stressed if a girl isn’t fucking with you because of dumb shit. It’s not your fault. No offense to girls, but they rarely know what they want, and most of them expect someone to wait forever. It’s a two-way street, and if you’re giving it your all and getting little back, then exit out of that shit. Life is too short to be stressed over girls and guys. Just be yourself.
Whatever the fuck that means. Like, I’m not asking for the sexiest girl or shit. I just want that girl who likes me for who I am and for what I like, you know? I just want her to be able to lay down and just listen to music with me. I want her to be there for me when I need to just talk to someone. I want her to laugh at my corny jokes and make me laugh at her jokes. I want to be able to do all the corny shit couples do like share sundaes, go to the movies, just lay down and watch the stars, or whatever the fuck. I just want her to appreciate me for the awkward kid that I am.
On a bathroom wall I wrote
“I’d rather argue with you than to be with someone else”
I took a piss and dismiss it like “fuck it” and went and tried to found somebody else.
Fuck arguing harvesting the feelings, I’d rather be by my fucking self
till about 2am and I call back and I hang up and start to blame myself